Lovers Make the Best Fighters

This blog topic is something that Jesus has been speaking to me about for the past 4 months.. but every time I went to write a blog about it I felt like the Lord was saying "not yet.. I still have soo much to reveal to you daughter.."
See, He has been teaching me and talking to me about this for months.. but it wasn't until this week that I finally took ownership of it and now actually have some authority in my writing, and hopefully something worth reading :)
Sep 09 through April 10 was ALL about revelation and restoration for me. The Lord reveals in order to restore, He exposes in order to abolish. I was so messed up and was so blinded to it, but God came and showed me my twisted mangled heart and then partnered with me to restore it!
The restoration process is so beautiful... and I could write forever about that. Honestly, being restored is the easy part, STEWARDING your restored heart on the other hand, that is the battle that I have learned I need to fight daily.
The revelation that the Lord has given me should be TREASURED as GOLD, and the restoration that He has imparted to me should be sealed and maintained! I used to have this mindset that once I was free I'd never ever again battle with that issue, sin, mindset, stronghold, etc, again... oh how wrong was I. It might seem like that battle is over, but the enemy is just pulling back in that area waiting for you to forget that you ever struggled with it before He strikes again!!
ITS A DAILY, moment by moment, thought by thought, word by word battle to take the ground back! I have heard it said SO many times in the past 3 weeks that we do not fight FOR victory but FROM victory. JESUS IS ALREADY VICTORIOUS!! It's up to us to take up that victory over and over and over and over again... and to not just VISIT His victory but to LIVE IN IT!
We need to be stewards of our restoration.. we need to prize it and fight for it and not let it go! REFUSE to revert back to your original state in the sinful nature!
The last 3 months I didn't steward the restoration and revelation that God gave me from Sep-April... and I allowed that victory to slip for a season. God had done a major work on some DEEP, intimate, broken places in my heart... and I let it go and let the enemy regain territory He had NO right to invade! It is not lost though. HE MUST WIN. HE WILL WIN. And ultimately, even though you have to die daily, YOU WIN WHEN HE WINS. When He is victorious, so are you... and am I :)
These past few days I have been facing some crazy spiritual warfare - but Marcy Willis said this morning during KCC that major warfare always occurs right before major breakthrough! Oh how EXCITED that gets me, its going to be worth it. Breakthrough is coming.. no.. breakthrough is here. RIGHT NOW. I will not miss it! I will not be robbed of my inheritance!,
I am more in love with Jesus then I have ever been, more intimate with Him then ever before. Real victory comes out of intimacy. I will not let anything rob me of that intimacy - and so I take captive every thought and emotion... and put the devil beneath my feet even when my flesh is loving what He is feeding me. I have found my prize - Jesus - and I will cling fast to Him :) He is the very reason that I live.
So I am made new once again. Restored, ready to fight and hold onto the restoration and revelation that was so freely and graciously imparted to me! This time I will continue to gain the ground bit by bit for the Lord, and I am not letting any of it go!
Little by little we take the land.

This morning God put all of these ideas and thoughts that I couldn't verbalize into words through Marcy, and Yes i was the blubbering fool in the front row crying because I FINALLY really truly GOT IT. It is late and I am writing this.. there is SO much more!! This is just the beginning of all of these things going REALLY DEEP.
He makes ALL things new.